I wanted this pregnancy so badly and know I don't feel happy

[MummaSue]

I am so glad that I just found this thread, for some reason I didn't even consider visiting the pregnancy after miscarriage thread! I am 5w3d pregnant after my first IVF cycle. I had a miscarriage in October last year from a freak natural pregnancy.

What NaeNae (and all of you in fact) has said has been very profound for me. I am absolutely terrified of another miscarriage and am spending my time between my desk at work and the bathroom - and at home, spend a lot of time in the bathroom checking. I'm not enjoying myself at all and this is NOT how I imagined my pregnancy to be. Goodness, my IVF worked first time - I should be over the MOON!

I'm going to try and let go of that fear and enjoy this pregnancy.
Thanks so much girls, reading this has really helped me a lot.

Hugs to all.
Sue xxx

[mummytogirls]

Dear Sue

I just wanted to let you know as the my pregnancy got further along I have started to feel more positive. I think it was around the 10 week stage that I felt I could be a little more excited. I am still looking forward to the big scan at 20 weeks. I think I really be excited then. I think there are lots of mums that feel the same as you. My cousin is pregnant with her first and worried every day.

Wishing you so much luck and happiness.
and crossing my fingers for you

Rachel