Pregnancy after Miscarriage or Loss #7

tictoc i had to post honey,i really hope all is ok darling. fx for you xx
afm, on holiday and my ankles are missing in action, combination of heat, water retention and mozzie bites

ill have everything crossed for you Ticktok....dont give up hope just yet...hugs hugs hugs

Ticktoc did you get blood results?

Hi everyone, I have to say - all your messages of support have brought tears to my eyes, thank you.

Greenslw how did it all go with work?

Desailly I hope eveything goes well tomorrow with your ob appt and scan

Kbudgie your ankles/kankles sound painful! I hope there's someone who can massage your feet for you at the end of the day?

I spent the day on the couch, in my pjs with all the curtains closed and the cat on my lap. I cracked it at DP as not only did he go to work (I can understand, he doesn't like to let people down) but he also agreed to being away from home tonight to do a 4am load (he's a truck driver) I couldn't talk to him all day without crying and becoming so angry! In the end, after a nana nap and a lovely chat with my girlfriend I rang him and told him I didn't want to hurt his feelings but I feel A, B and C about him not being home. Then I got off my bum, got dressed and went for a walk in the rain as the sun was going down - it was actually quite nice :)

I didn't ring for my blood results, my GP is away today and I didn't want to have to speak to another Dr. My boobs are looking like deflated balloons and my tummy has gone all spongy and soft (well softer than normal anyway). I know I could get positive news tomorrow but in my heart I'm confident it's not good. I haven't told my BB due group yet, just not ready to share until I know 100%.

Hang in there tic toc
Men handle things so differently. My hubby would be the same. He didn't come home from work when I lost little twin and didn't come home when my pituitary tumor was diagnosed
It's his way and I'm getting used to it.

All the symptoms can be deceiving I am hoping you have good news tomorrow <3

Thanks Duchess - I guess that's why they say women are the stronger sex?

I was just so angry as with my loss last month I was visiting my family and his reasoning was I had my family to support me (although he did come up after finishing work on the saturday) but this time I'm here all by myself - my family and best friends are 2.5 /3 hrs away and I haven't made any close friends since moving in last September. Love him to bits but I think if he walked in the door tonight I'd probably throw something at him out of pure frustration. Men! :wall:

You are not alone :)

Tic toc the walk sounded just lovely I hope it helped. I hope dp comes home with a big cuddle for you I agree with duchess but still a bit sucky. Goodluck tomorrow.

Kbudgie I take it your in the heat then try to enjoy with or without ancles

Desailly goodluck for tomorrow the first appointment is so exciting.

So my day hmmm I got a moment with my boss and it went well she was happy for me and eccentric though she said its hard for managers she seemed genuinely happy. She said she thinks I should keep it under my hat until after the interview, she's on the panel and they are shortlisting today. My other boss (yes two bosses) is also on the panel and the regional manager "gulp" this is going to be a tough interview but I hope they respect my integrity and honest and trust that after a year i will be back and the same good worker I am today. Who knows watch this space.

yes green i am in the heat in Malta
good luck with the interview xx

How did you go Tick Tok

Duchess..any news

Greenslw....thats good that you told you're boss and at least now you can wait till after youre interview...hope it goes well.

Hi all. I had my ob apt and scan today but unfortunately not good news. No little heartbeat. Looks like I lost it in the 6th week so guess those hcg levels were deceiving.

I'm booked in for d&c next Wed. Wish it was sooner but dr has a busy week and couldn't do it any sooner.

Don't really know what to think now. Feel like I can't keep going through this and should just be thankful for my 2 wonderful kids and leave it at that. But on the other hand I've invested so much mental energy on trying to get pg over last couple of years that to give up would be afailure - like it was all for nothing. I think DH would like to give up. ..

Sorry for bit of a rant just emotional at the moment. No one knew I was pg so don't have anyone to talk to except DH. Not sure whether to tell my mum as my step dad is dying of cancer so don't really want to burden her with more bad news.

Anyway good luck to the rest of you. Ticktoc how did you go today?

Oh desailly I'm so so sorry :(
I know how you feel about ttc but I was always grateful I didn't have lots of miscarriages just failed attempts, it wears you down. Ask your doctor if you should take a month or two off? I couldn't because of my ovarian failure time was precious.

Wednesday is forever away :(

Ticktoc ~ any news?

Thanks duchess. My time is running out too due to very low egg count so I think I either keep trying immediately or give up as in another year I may not have the option anymore.

Oh Desailly, I am so sorry :comfort: I hope you can find comfort with your DH, maybe confide in a friend? I'm sure your Mum would be ok with you telling her. Life is not fair at times :shakehead:


I saw the Dr - hcg has risen to 5959 so not doubling but increasing so the Dr is happy. She has scheduled me for weekly blood tests and has advised that I cancel my u/s for the 24th and have it on the 12th July as she thinks my dates are out by a week or so and that's why only the sac could be seen. I don't know what to think anymore, I'm just going to go with it and try to not drive myself and DP crazy in the process. Guess we wait and see.

Desaily -- low egg count then keep going, just keep believing it will happen, you do not deserve it less because you have two beautiful children, you don't want it less either. Be kind to yourself and share your loss with real life support people, you need to let it out :(

Tictock!!!!! Keep thinking positive!

Desaily - I'm so very sorry :hug:

TicToc - glad your numbers are still going up, hoping you get some good news at your next ultrasound x

Desailly :hug: I hope you are able to try again with no pressure if that's what you want big cuddle to you

Tic toc sounds like a sensible dr you have I waited for first scan till I knew there would be a hb. I know waiting drives us all nuts but I hope you can keep yourself busy and July 12 will come soon. Numbers going up is good.

Kbudgie multa! Now I really am green enjoy.

:hug: Desailly, Im so sorry for your loss

Good luck Tic Toc. Thinking of you hun.