Hi girls, gosh lots to catch up on, just quick one and I'll be back later for more pressies...
sunbeam I am devastated to read your post! and you were back in this thread again so quickly, surely next time will be your sticky bub and it too will happen quickly. Take care of yourself xoxox
Just got call from FS, levels are down from 3100 to 2000 which means a m/c and no need for ectopic surgery. I am in some way relieved as I really did not want surgery on my tubes and then the constant worry of future ectopics on top of everything else. I think the m/c part just has not hit me yet as I still feel sort of numb, I guess it will feel more real when I start to bleed. Part of me is still feeling quite positive because thats 2pregnancies from 3 IUIs and I still feel my baby is very close so the universe can get screwed if it thinks I'll give up.
Sunbeam you are in my thoughts, im glad you are feeling ok about it at the moment. Take care of yourself and hopefully you will be back in here very very soon
Sunbeam - I am so sorry hon, I am truly devestated for you. Know that we are all thinking of you, and are longing to see you back here soon.
Love & Hugs,
XXX
sunbeam I have no words that seem right. I'm very happy to know that your housemate is staying home today to be with you, she must be a very special woman to do that for you. So many people wouldn't bother to do that. I hope you are able to find some answers as to why this keeps happening for you. Your strength is inspiring xox I will continue to follow you as I can't wait to read your BA when the time comes.
I'm having one of those days where I'm convinced that we are going to miscarry again.
I had a day like this 2 weeks ago and ended up at the Dr's getting a BT and ultrasound, both of which were reassuring - for about 2 days! I stopped studying the toilet paper everytime I wiped and even started to refer to it as "blobby" as that is what it looked like on the scan.
But in the last few days I've noticed my ms hasn't been nearly as bad. It seems to hit mostly at night as I'm going to bed, but nowhere near as bad as it was last Tuesday when it was at it's worst. My boobs are feeling pretty much normal, although that said I am getting a few aches in them as I type. I'm also getting a dull ache in my abdomen, but I have had that since the start. I am so scared that this one is a missed mc like the first one and that my symptoms are going away as my HcG drops.
I have my first (and I suspect my last) appointment with my Ob on Friday, but that seems so far away. I guess I just need some reassurance that it will be OK. That everything I am experiencing is completely normal etc etc. I am so scared that we are going to lose this one as well. I have actually been thinking that if I do lose it, that we are done. Desperately as I want another baby, is it fair to put myself and DH through all of the stress and worry. Is it God telling me my family is complete? I hate to burden DH with all of this (again) as I know that he is as worried as I am and there is nothing either he or I can do at this stage to (what I think is) delay the inevetable.
Aaaaaaaagggggghhhhh. It is going to be a long 3 days! Thanks for listening. I know that you guys understand what I am going through as you live with it everyday as well. Please cross everything for me!
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I am devastated to read your post! and you were back in this thread again so quickly, surely next time will be your sticky bub and it too will happen quickly. Take care of yourself xoxox
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