Sunbeam you are in my thoughts, im glad you are feeling ok about it at the moment. Take care of yourself and hopefully you will be back in here very very soon
Sunbeam - I am so sorry hon, I am truly devestated for you. Know that we are all thinking of you, and are longing to see you back here soon.
Love & Hugs,
XXX
sunbeam I have no words that seem right. I'm very happy to know that your housemate is staying home today to be with you, she must be a very special woman to do that for you. So many people wouldn't bother to do that. I hope you are able to find some answers as to why this keeps happening for you. Your strength is inspiring xox I will continue to follow you as I can't wait to read your BA when the time comes.
I'm having one of those days where I'm convinced that we are going to miscarry again.
I had a day like this 2 weeks ago and ended up at the Dr's getting a BT and ultrasound, both of which were reassuring - for about 2 days! I stopped studying the toilet paper everytime I wiped and even started to refer to it as "blobby" as that is what it looked like on the scan.
But in the last few days I've noticed my ms hasn't been nearly as bad. It seems to hit mostly at night as I'm going to bed, but nowhere near as bad as it was last Tuesday when it was at it's worst. My boobs are feeling pretty much normal, although that said I am getting a few aches in them as I type. I'm also getting a dull ache in my abdomen, but I have had that since the start. I am so scared that this one is a missed mc like the first one and that my symptoms are going away as my HcG drops.
I have my first (and I suspect my last) appointment with my Ob on Friday, but that seems so far away. I guess I just need some reassurance that it will be OK. That everything I am experiencing is completely normal etc etc. I am so scared that we are going to lose this one as well. I have actually been thinking that if I do lose it, that we are done. Desperately as I want another baby, is it fair to put myself and DH through all of the stress and worry. Is it God telling me my family is complete? I hate to burden DH with all of this (again) as I know that he is as worried as I am and there is nothing either he or I can do at this stage to (what I think is) delay the inevetable.
Aaaaaaaagggggghhhhh. It is going to be a long 3 days! Thanks for listening. I know that you guys understand what I am going through as you live with it everyday as well. Please cross everything for me!
Sunbeam - i am so sad to read your news. You have a fantastic attitude though and I am glad to hear you are not giving up. i hope to see you back in this thread quickly and that the next one will be a sticky baby.
Sparkles - I know how scary the spotting can be, I hope all goes well!
Smallfry - Sorry i can't seem to get used to calling you anything but smallfry. Sorry to hear you're blood pressure is creeping up. At least you are full term and I hope if you do need to be induced all goes well.
kirsten - I think we all have days like those. I have them too but so far all is well. Symptoms seem to come and go and MS does tend to taper off (I had 3 weeks where I felt ok and am back to being sick again). At 18 weeks I STILL check for blood every single time i go to the loo. With our history it's hard not to worry. Unless you are having cramping and bleeding though I wouldn't stress too much, I bet all is just fine with baby. I hope all goes well at your OB appt and that you get some reassuring news.
I'm just plodding along, still spotting ever so lightly, but just have a gut feeling things aren't going well, i know only time will tell, so just hanging in there day by day. I seem to have a break down each night as i hop into bed cause i dread what i may wake up to in the morning. sorry to be all doom & gloom xx
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