HPL - you are true to your name. Very positive post. I am very glad that you've got your visit booked in and have had some reassuring news from them about being able to scan more frequently. A lot of the reading I have done said that TLC and offering scans for reassurance from caregivers is one of the best things they can offer women who have suffered loss.
I agree, it can get you down sometimes reading posts where people are struggling, and sometimes I wonder whether being glum has a self perpetuating effect? I have been thinking about that a lot lately and wondering whether I also need to balance the experiences I read about here in BB with experiences where people haven't experienced loss and bereavenment, to give me something else to think about and hope for.
But then I remind myself that in these forums, are some of the only places that BB'ers will express their most intimate thoughts and fears. Some are able to share their fears and anxiety' with others generally, but for some, this place is safe and supportive or its maybe even the place where they experiement articulating their thoughts.
Honestly, if I told people half the stuff that went on inside my head, they would grow tired of listening and they would unduly worry about me. Fortunately the cats are very good listeners! But in here, I can express how I feel and am supported by people who have walked diferent paths but know the journey of grief and bereavement all too well.
For me, most of the time, I am strict with myself and spend time each day being thankful for the blessing of this pregnancy this day. I am the only one who has the "power" to make the most of today. The only things I can control is how I perceive things. No one else can do it for me and I can't wait around for a magic date, because there are none for me. I can't worry too much about what tomorrow might bring, or what experiences I have in the past. This pregnancy, is a new pregnancy and this day is a new day. It sounds trite and simplistic I know, but it works for me. I still have days I struggle and am scared out of my wits. But I have so much to be thankful for.
Emma - sorry to hear you are doing it so tough with your anxieties. We each have to find our own way through them, and often it ain't perfect. Congrats on your pregnancy too and reaching so far along! And good news to ehar your baby girl is a kicker. It must be very reassuring. Welcome too - it will be good to hear from you. How are those autumn colours in Christchurch? There are some really amazing ads on the telly over here at the moment for NZ, and there was one recently which showed autumn colours. Just stunning.
Maggie, Tashybabe, Sparkes, Elise, MissK, how are you doing?
Just a quick one, I have been laying low, but can start getting excited now!!
I has my 12 week ultrasound yesterday and all is well!!! Bub's is measuring perfect to dates, rolling around and then not rolling around when they went to take the NT measurement!! All clear for the NTD Anencephaly which we lost our baby to last time as well!!YAY!!!
Bub did finally roll over and awesome measurement of 1.5mm or something, combined with blood my risk is 1:3800 and 1:31590 for both things the test for. They laughed as this puts my risk at that of a 15 year old.
Sorry about the ME post, but DH are I are soo relieved!! I will catch up on posts now and try to stay in the loop a bit more!!!
xx
Snugglybean - thrilled to see you here. As I've mentioned in another post, so very pleased for you. And you've been so patient too, waiting until you could try again.
Sparkles - yay for the positive u/s result. It's such a relief isn't it.
Sorry I haven't kept up with everyone. Just off in my own little world. Finally starting to believe this is real - the baby bump and stretchmarks are a give away. Just waiting for those first flutters. Still get bad days of fear, but I'm working on that, even got some homeopathic drops to help with it.
Sparkles - aweseome!! well done. it is so nice to see you so happy. I know the feeling!
Snugglebean - sorry you are so sick...... hopefully a day off work will help? I found blackmores morning sickness formula really took the edge off for me.( giner and vit b12 I think) Didn't make it go away, but made intense nausea bearable.
Tash - Sorry to hear you are struggling but awesome on the 16 weeks! The flutters will be there before you know it, or realise it. Sneaky little things that they are.
Sorry, been laying low with the sickness. Just been too much effort to drag myself on here unfortunately.... but today is a better day!
Glad there is so much good news flying around at the moment. Just what we all need!
I am 9 and half weeks and doing well. For the first time ever my ob has not ordered 10 week scan......can't decide if I'm happy about that or not! But trying to be positive.
Will jump on again soon, but sending happy thoughts to everyone until then. Keep smiling!
Sorry to have been a bit quiet, I too have been "laying low" due to morning sickness! Still! It really is meant to be over by now everyone keeps telling me (except of course those horror stories where it goes for 20 weeks, or worse, for 9 months!). Just as well potato chips have vit b12 in them, because I think that's the only vitamin I must be getting LOL!
Yay snugglybean!!!! glad to see you here!!
Yay sparkles!!! great news about the scan!!
Yay dory!!! 13 weeks!!!
Welcome Emma!!
Hi Maggie, HPL & Tashybabe!!!
ladies, and even if I only pop in occaisonally, know that I think of you all often
ladies, and even if I only pop in occaisonally, know that I think of you all often 
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