Sorry to have been a bit quiet, I too have been "laying low" due to morning sickness! Still! It really is meant to be over by now everyone keeps telling me (except of course those horror stories where it goes for 20 weeks, or worse, for 9 months!). Just as well potato chips have vit b12 in them, because I think that's the only vitamin I must be getting LOL!
Yay snugglybean!!!! glad to see you here!!
Yay sparkles!!! great news about the scan!!
Yay dory!!! 13 weeks!!!
Welcome Emma!!
Hi Maggie, HPL & Tashybabe!!!
ladies, and even if I only pop in occaisonally, know that I think of you all often
Maggie, Milly - good to see you both feel good enough to get on to BB. Well done. Enjoy the moment. Even if I don't always remember to ask how you are, I do think of you.
AFM - well, I have decided to have the cerclage and go in Thurs 25th March. It was a really tough decision to make, as you all know from my tortured posts, but I am really comfortable with the decision I have made. It doesn't mean I am not just a wee bit anxious about the risks involved, but if things don't go to plan, I am am reasonably confident that I won't tie myself up in knots with self recriminations and guilt. I might for a little while, but not long term. I just really feel it is the right decision for me. Filled out the hospital admissions forms and spoke to the ob today.
It's odd though, despite feeling really comfortable with the decision, today I am feeling really sad and lonely.... I suppose just feeling a wee bit sorry for myself. I am teary and flat and just want to shut myself away from the world. Probably precipttated by some different feelings in my lower abdoment this morning which turned out to be wind but had me on the verge of calling the doctor after only the first different feeling. The feelings were distinctly different from the feelings Ihave had associated with pre term labour, but still enough to put me on edge and burst that lttle bubble of invincibility I somehow manage to build. Oh well its to be expected, just have to get through it.
If I ever didn't know it before, I do today, I am an emotional eater. I just feel like getting all the naughties I can and just eating them. Pure decadence and indulgence. I haven't though
Snuggly its so good to see you in here, i had bad morning sickness this time around too whereas i didnt with the last one and they say ms is a good sign so bring it on i say. How many weeks would you say you are??
Sorry for no other persies just been so busy with work and then housework and walking the dog on top of that so havent had much time to post.
I hope everyone is doing really well.
Take care, talk soon
elise - yeah, feels awesome to be here! I was really sick last time too, and unfortunately having had a molar preg, being sick is not necessarily a good sign for me. But I think it feels different to last time, so we'll see.
dory - awesome choice on the cerclage. Whichever way you went, I'm really glad you have made and owned that decision. Good luck with it chicky.
I'm slowly coming back down to earth now, especially after being back at work today! Need to sit down and nut out whether or not I am going to continue working, and for how long. One the one hand, we can survive without the money if I give up now, and then I can rest up and give this pregnancy the very best shot. On the other hand - what if it's disaster again? I don't want to give up a job that I love and end up with all that heartbreak. At the moment we're thinking I'll stick it out til Easter and check out what my betas are up til then, and maybe make a decision later.
finally feeling ready to post on this thread after a few weeks of lurking... Congratulations to all of you brave ladies in here on your pregnancies.
Currently cautiously pregnant!! 9+2!!
Lost my little boy in October 2009 and was really struggling at the beginning of the year...I was so unsure about trying again but my DH wanted it so desperately. In the end I'm so glad we did as we were lucky enough to fall pg in the first cycle of trying.
Got our on february 13th and after one day of freaking out I decided that no amount of worrying was ever going to change the outcome of this pg. It has been my first real positive move forward. No longer circling round in my own grief, I have been focused on trying to stay happy and positive for this new little life. I have made the positive decision not to read a single page of a pregnancy book but to react with my gut instincts this time (which I really wish I had gone with last time but it was my first pg then and what did I know?)
I have booked a private scan for next week (I'm in the UK and there are serious issues with early pregnancy care on the NHS here in my opinion.) Swinging from excitement to sheer terror about the prospect of the scan but I know that it's another positive choice I have made for this little one.
Worrying a bit about the 13th of April, due date of my first wee man. I feel I bonded more with him after he died than during my pg with him... (if that makes sense) and not sure how to approach this day and honour his memory whilst this new life grows where he should have been. On the other hand, don't want to wish him back there as our current wee one would never have come to be without him leaving us. Feeling a bit conflicted ATM.
Anyway, thanks for listening so far, will try to keep it shorter in the furture!
K.x
Hi Kermit. Welcome aboard. I am even more tentative here than you at about 4 + 1 - but I figure this is the place to offload all that.
I have joined a Belly Buddies group, and someone has posted about high hcg levels and early bfps. My mind defaults to molar - everyone else thinks "twins!" It's strange. The mantra, given to me by a counsellor, forever ago, is "every pregnancy is different." I say it all day every day - it's only been three days since my bfp and I am already going batty with nerves. How am I going to get through this?
Hi Kermit - congratulations on your pregnancy! I hope you feel some more reassurance after your ultrasound!!
snugglybean - the first trimester can be so hard... i know it is awful for me, it can be really hard to think positive at times!
Dory - I think I would be completely on edge with any weird feeling, if I'd had pre-term labour before.... As it is I'm bad enough with any pain that isn't something I've experienced before, and automatically think bad thoughts.
I got an appt in the post y/day for a growth scan next monday - can't wait.. but I don't have anyone to go with me, so I'm not sure what the heck to do about my 3yo DD... I guess i have to hope she'll be a perfect princess & sit still the whole time, lol
Hi Ladies, It has been a while for me.. Glad to read everyone is doing well..
So happy to read your procedure went well Dory, was thinking of you this week.
Milly5: I hear you on the MS i am on day 3 of no vomitting YAY, so happy considering it was up to 12 times a day from week 3 :-( glad it's settled down but at the same time freak out that something might be wrong - im crazy i know...
Welcome everyone else, sorry not many persies tonight, trying to get the nursery room cleaned!!
My DF and I bought our house Sept last year, we moved in just after our m/c, so the nursery room was our dumping room I didn't want anyone to go in there, now though we need it, so I am panic mode trying to clear it out. On the plus side I found all our winter clothes lol!!
We're putting together the bubs cot this weekend YAY!!
sorry I've been so inconsistent with my posting here...
Tomorrow i have my first growth ultrasound, I'm sure that everything will be fine, but there is still a little bit of me that is a bit worried they'll find something wrong... guess it's a fear you never really get past when you're pregnant! I'm in my 3rd trimester now, and I can't believe how fast it's all going... seems like just y/day I got my first faint bfp @ 11dpo, and had no idea if it was an evap or not!
Hope.Positive.Love - can be hard to get back into all the baby stuff, after you've had a m/c, but then you realise your pregnancy is flying by & all of a sudden things need to be put together etc.. scary & exciting! I need to put my cot together - to find out what parts are missing. blah.
Milly - my m/s started settling down around 16 weeks as well, it was a godsend.. with Gaby I had it until 24 weeks - then it came back at 27 weeks.. not fun! lol
So my first beta was 720. At 18dpo. I was pretty stressed about it, but I'm really Ok with it now.
Last night I had this really vivid dream that I was getting ready to meet my doctor for a d & c. It was my Brisbane doc, at her surgery, but the house I went back to to get ready was my parents' old house, and all the clotes I was wearing were items I don't own anymore, but have in the past. Also, I was driving, in our car. We haven't had a car for more than a year now. It was so bizarre that I woke up and got out of bed (helped that DH was up at 4:15 to go on a 100mile bike ride)
I had a tingling buzzy pain on my right hand side yesterday, and am now stressing that it will be ectopic. Scan is booked for April 12 - will just put it out of my mind until then, I think!
HPL - Our nursery has been a sewing room, and I really threw myself into my sewing when I found out I had to wait 6 months to try again. So all of a sudden my fabric collection has exploded! Bought some archive boxes yesterday to sort it all out, and I'm feeling good. Will move down to a sewing nook downstairs so we can actually think about that room.
HPL - I was wondering why you were so quiet! OMG - that m/s is just so tiring. You must have felt like all you ever did was vomit. I am so glad that things have settled down. So it would be 6 days today without vomitting, if your trend continued. I hope so. You will ge your nursery done!
Audax - sorry you had such a bizzare dream Sometimes they can be unsettling.
Gabrielle & Emersyn - how did your scan go today?
Milly5 how you doing?
Hi to everyone else, I am short on time and don't have my usual time to respond. Maybe tomorrow? Take care.
Have just stepped up a level in queasiness. Feels yuck, but hopefully means the hcg is rising and we're cooking up a viable little bundle in there!
Have nicknamed this one "Stitch" because ever since conception, my sewing room has been a flurry of activity, and I often wake up in the middle of the night dreaming of dresses and designs.
Dory: Sadly I only made it to 4 days no vomitting!! :-( Gotta love the toilet bowl, good thing tho my bathroom and ensuite NEVER BEEN CLEANER!! lol
Audax: Glad someone else is in the same boat as me, feels a lot better lol, still haven't done a thing since last post.. Cot is made though YAY
Gabrielle&Emersyn: I can feel the next 5 mths just fly by for sure.... it feels like weeks ago when our hospital appt was, now it's next Wednesday
Can't stay for long, not only am I working fulltime but i also go to school 2 nights a week, great fun right lol - but I had to tell everyone that yesterday I heard the BEST sound in the world...
OUR BABIES HEART BEAT!! YAY - i recorded it on my phone and it's now my ringtone, message tone, alarm LMAO, perhaps a tad too much but my DF and I can't stop listening to!!
LOTS OF HUGGS AND GOOD THOUGHTS GOING OUT TO ALL MY BB FRIENDS!!!
Thought I would pop my head in as I have just had a bpf after a 3rd miscarriage at 5weeks the start of Jan - Af was late, I did a poas and got a BFP, then 3 days later did another with a BFP, then another 2 days, did a digital test that said not pregnant and AF came 2 days after that.
I had a funny cycle this month and o'd late and got my first bfp on Tuesday. I did another test yesterday which was bfp and then one this morning (just to check cos I am paranoid) which was really faint, so silly me, got the last digital one I was saving (they are from the UK and tell you how many wks after ov you are) and it came up Not Pregnant again - silly silly me.
Now I am really upset and scared, actually terrified that it's all happening again. The first poas were First Response Early which can pick up 12.5mgu, but the digital is 50mgu so here I am in tears, can't get to see the doc until Friday next week due to the holiday(s).
The thing is, I felt pregnant before I got the first BFP - massive and tender watermelons, vague nausea throughout the day, creamy cm and I still feel that way so I am trying to stay positive but it's proving very hard indeed.
ladies, and even if I only pop in occaisonally, know that I think of you all often
on february 13th and after one day of freaking out I decided that no amount of worrying was ever going to change the outcome of this pg. It has been my first real positive move forward. No longer circling round in my own grief, I have been focused on trying to stay happy and positive for this new little life. I have made the positive decision not to read a single page of a pregnancy book but to react with my gut instincts this time (which I really wish I had gone with last time but it was my first pg then and what did I know?)
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