Maggie, Milly - good to see you both feel good enough to get on to BB. Well done. Enjoy the moment. Even if I don't always remember to ask how you are, I do think of you.
AFM - well, I have decided to have the cerclage and go in Thurs 25th March. It was a really tough decision to make, as you all know from my tortured posts, but I am really comfortable with the decision I have made. It doesn't mean I am not just a wee bit anxious about the risks involved, but if things don't go to plan, I am am reasonably confident that I won't tie myself up in knots with self recriminations and guilt. I might for a little while, but not long term. I just really feel it is the right decision for me. Filled out the hospital admissions forms and spoke to the ob today.
It's odd though, despite feeling really comfortable with the decision, today I am feeling really sad and lonely.... I suppose just feeling a wee bit sorry for myself. I am teary and flat and just want to shut myself away from the world. Probably precipttated by some different feelings in my lower abdoment this morning which turned out to be wind but had me on the verge of calling the doctor after only the first different feeling. The feelings were distinctly different from the feelings Ihave had associated with pre term labour, but still enough to put me on edge and burst that lttle bubble of invincibility I somehow manage to build. Oh well its to be expected, just have to get through it.
If I ever didn't know it before, I do today, I am an emotional eater. I just feel like getting all the naughties I can and just eating them. Pure decadence and indulgence. I haven't though
Snuggly its so good to see you in here, i had bad morning sickness this time around too whereas i didnt with the last one and they say ms is a good sign so bring it on i say. How many weeks would you say you are??
Sorry for no other persies just been so busy with work and then housework and walking the dog on top of that so havent had much time to post.
I hope everyone is doing really well.
Take care, talk soon
elise - yeah, feels awesome to be here! I was really sick last time too, and unfortunately having had a molar preg, being sick is not necessarily a good sign for me. But I think it feels different to last time, so we'll see.
dory - awesome choice on the cerclage. Whichever way you went, I'm really glad you have made and owned that decision. Good luck with it chicky.
I'm slowly coming back down to earth now, especially after being back at work today! Need to sit down and nut out whether or not I am going to continue working, and for how long. One the one hand, we can survive without the money if I give up now, and then I can rest up and give this pregnancy the very best shot. On the other hand - what if it's disaster again? I don't want to give up a job that I love and end up with all that heartbreak. At the moment we're thinking I'll stick it out til Easter and check out what my betas are up til then, and maybe make a decision later.
Hi everyone, i am new to BB. I had a miscarriage February 6, 2010 @ 7-8weeks. It was so devastating. My beautiful hubby and I are trying again, I believe I am just at the end of ovulation now, so we will know in the next couple of weeks. Had what seemed like a really long o cycle though so not sure when AF is due.
I just wanted to join in as even though i am not sure I am even pregnant yet , I'm a little nervous already. i have been reading this thread for a while and feel comfortable here.
Good luck and baby dust to all
Thanks for having me.
xxxx
finally feeling ready to post on this thread after a few weeks of lurking... Congratulations to all of you brave ladies in here on your pregnancies.
Currently cautiously pregnant!! 9+2!!
Lost my little boy in October 2009 and was really struggling at the beginning of the year...I was so unsure about trying again but my DH wanted it so desperately. In the end I'm so glad we did as we were lucky enough to fall pg in the first cycle of trying.
Got our on february 13th and after one day of freaking out I decided that no amount of worrying was ever going to change the outcome of this pg. It has been my first real positive move forward. No longer circling round in my own grief, I have been focused on trying to stay happy and positive for this new little life. I have made the positive decision not to read a single page of a pregnancy book but to react with my gut instincts this time (which I really wish I had gone with last time but it was my first pg then and what did I know?)
I have booked a private scan for next week (I'm in the UK and there are serious issues with early pregnancy care on the NHS here in my opinion.) Swinging from excitement to sheer terror about the prospect of the scan but I know that it's another positive choice I have made for this little one.
Worrying a bit about the 13th of April, due date of my first wee man. I feel I bonded more with him after he died than during my pg with him... (if that makes sense) and not sure how to approach this day and honour his memory whilst this new life grows where he should have been. On the other hand, don't want to wish him back there as our current wee one would never have come to be without him leaving us. Feeling a bit conflicted ATM.
Anyway, thanks for listening so far, will try to keep it shorter in the furture!
K.x
Hi Kermit. Welcome aboard. I am even more tentative here than you at about 4 + 1 - but I figure this is the place to offload all that.
I have joined a Belly Buddies group, and someone has posted about high hcg levels and early bfps. My mind defaults to molar - everyone else thinks "twins!" It's strange. The mantra, given to me by a counsellor, forever ago, is "every pregnancy is different." I say it all day every day - it's only been three days since my bfp and I am already going batty with nerves. How am I going to get through this?
Hi Kermit - congratulations on your pregnancy! I hope you feel some more reassurance after your ultrasound!!
snugglybean - the first trimester can be so hard... i know it is awful for me, it can be really hard to think positive at times!
Dory - I think I would be completely on edge with any weird feeling, if I'd had pre-term labour before.... As it is I'm bad enough with any pain that isn't something I've experienced before, and automatically think bad thoughts.
I got an appt in the post y/day for a growth scan next monday - can't wait.. but I don't have anyone to go with me, so I'm not sure what the heck to do about my 3yo DD... I guess i have to hope she'll be a perfect princess & sit still the whole time, lol
Hi guys,
I am new to this thread, I tried to post yesterday but it didnt seem to work, so apologies if I am repeating myself.
Hubby and I lost our little angel at 7-8 weeks on 6th february. We were both so devastated.
We are TTC at the moment and I am currently reading into every twinge, bit of cm, and moment of possiblity...its insane!!
So So hoping to be pregnant again this month and waiting to find out, and have been reading on BB for a while, it all seems so supportive and a great place to express.
Just wanted to pass on some news on behalf of Bonham08... she had a scan today and bubs heartbeat was nice and strong. For those of you who don't know, Bonham08 had a loss last November 09 - at her 12 week scan they discovered that bubba "Everson" had passed at around 8 weeks gestation.
Today is a huge milestone for Bonham08 as it was at this gestation and scan that she discovered "Everson" had passed - but current belly bub is going great guns.
Bonham08 is having issues with her internet at present so I offered to post on her behalf.
I had a general question for anyone to answer. Was just wondering if anyone here had found that if they fell pregnant relatively soon after a miscarriage did the symptoms of pregnancy appear quicker than usual. I know...I am currently TTC and enduring The TWW, and just "feeling" certain things that feel pregnant like and arent such a distant memory..
Being Hopeful I guess, but the power of positive thought does amazing things.
Anyway your feedback if any would be really appreciated at this point.
Thanks in advance
Congrats to Bonham! That is awesome. She must have really been dreading the scan and soooooo relieved at the results. Go you good thing! Belly rubs.
Millyd - I have always discovered my pregnancies very early on - at 3 weeks. The symptoms vary, but include the usual ones. I also "look" for symptoms and in the 2WW will myself to be having those symptoms, and sometimes it turns out I wasn't. But it's different for everyone.
It's just a big old tough mind game I reckon. You want something so badly that you read what you want into every little perceived symptom. Hope you get your BFP soon! Fingers crossed. I agree about being positive. Sometimes it can move moutains and get you the result you want, and other times? You may not get the result you want but at least you're not completely miserable the whole time.
Hi to everyone else. I seem to get on to BB a lot huh? the joy of not working and being mostly on bed rest. I have a lot of time for this! It helps keep me sane, beleive you me.
HI ladies,
here for my "weekly pop in".
Yep, I have decided that I just can't do it after work, so my chance to catch up with all my BB is on my day off!
Dory - I was thinking of you yesterday, how did it go? and how soon do you get your results? For what it's worth, I completely understand your decision, and I am keeping everything crossed for you!!!!
Oh and the emotional eater - me too
Elsielouise - yes MS is supposed to be a good sign, my GP thought it was fantastic how sick I was LOL!
Snugglybean - mm the work decision, I know that one, we are wondering the same thing. I have decided to stick it out (though I do wish I'd taken time off in weeks 9-11 when the MS was at it's absolute most horrible). We could do without the money in the short -medium term, but I will need to go back at some point, and if I leave then I might not have a job to go back to. So at this stage I am thinking of starting mat leave about 6 weeks before due date, and if things get too much, cutting back my hours. I have already said I can no longer do the long drives as they really wipe me out.
And the first trimester - well, I didn't enjoy it, I didn't get to feel happy and excited, just scared sh%#*less all the time. And it did seem to drag on forever, so I do hear you when you say 'how will I get through this' - the answer though, is you just do. And then at somepoint you will begin to feel excited and happy. For me it has taken to almost now. I hadn't even realised I'd entered the second trimester, because I was still too busy panicking!
Welcome Kermit, and congratulations!!!! I think it's normal to feel a bit conflicted, and I do beleive that you can grieve your angel while welcoming and being excited about your new bub, they are both valid emotions
Emma - :wave:
Millyd - another Milly!! :wave:
Thanks TK for sharing Bonham's news! Yay Bonham!!!
AFM - well now 16 weeks and I can finally say that this week the MS is starting to settle. I still start the day with a vommie, but I can cope with that, and usually have a bout of nausea mid morning & mid afternoon (good excuse to have biccies and potato chips for mornng/afternoon tea), but apart from that, I haven't had too many other vommies (unless I've been for a long drive), and, the even better news, is that I can eat! still quite plain food, but "food glorious food" none-the-less! There are still a few things that I can't come at (eg BBQ meat - my DH fave), but my DH and I have eaten dinner together all week now - the first time since about 6 weeks I think! And my vitamins stay down - I hope spud can still make use of them and it's not too late!
hi girls - thankyou for thinking of me and your words of support. The procedure went really well yesterday. I coped with not eating or drinking for 12 hours, something I thought would be impossible and wasnt sick from the anaesthetic. Feel a bit dusty today, but the bad insomnia I had last night wouldn't help there. Not too much pain or cramping and not too much bleeding. Some weird flushing of my skin around my chest, but no raised temperature or any other symptoms so I am not worried. I am lightheaded but its a common side affect apparently. Felt on top of the world after being discharged from hossy but a bit less so today. Dr was really happy with the procedure and said I could eat chocolate as its good for me. Bring on easter.
I don't have much to offer in the way of persies, but Milly5 - so glad you can finally break the shackles of m/s and can keep some glorious food down! Take care all.
Hi Ladies, It has been a while for me.. Glad to read everyone is doing well..
So happy to read your procedure went well Dory, was thinking of you this week.
Milly5: I hear you on the MS i am on day 3 of no vomitting YAY, so happy considering it was up to 12 times a day from week 3 :-( glad it's settled down but at the same time freak out that something might be wrong - im crazy i know...
Welcome everyone else, sorry not many persies tonight, trying to get the nursery room cleaned!!
My DF and I bought our house Sept last year, we moved in just after our m/c, so the nursery room was our dumping room I didn't want anyone to go in there, now though we need it, so I am panic mode trying to clear it out. On the plus side I found all our winter clothes lol!!
We're putting together the bubs cot this weekend YAY!!
sorry I've been so inconsistent with my posting here...
Tomorrow i have my first growth ultrasound, I'm sure that everything will be fine, but there is still a little bit of me that is a bit worried they'll find something wrong... guess it's a fear you never really get past when you're pregnant! I'm in my 3rd trimester now, and I can't believe how fast it's all going... seems like just y/day I got my first faint bfp @ 11dpo, and had no idea if it was an evap or not!
Hope.Positive.Love - can be hard to get back into all the baby stuff, after you've had a m/c, but then you realise your pregnancy is flying by & all of a sudden things need to be put together etc.. scary & exciting! I need to put my cot together - to find out what parts are missing. blah.
Milly - my m/s started settling down around 16 weeks as well, it was a godsend.. with Gaby I had it until 24 weeks - then it came back at 27 weeks.. not fun! lol
So my first beta was 720. At 18dpo. I was pretty stressed about it, but I'm really Ok with it now.
Last night I had this really vivid dream that I was getting ready to meet my doctor for a d & c. It was my Brisbane doc, at her surgery, but the house I went back to to get ready was my parents' old house, and all the clotes I was wearing were items I don't own anymore, but have in the past. Also, I was driving, in our car. We haven't had a car for more than a year now. It was so bizarre that I woke up and got out of bed (helped that DH was up at 4:15 to go on a 100mile bike ride)
I had a tingling buzzy pain on my right hand side yesterday, and am now stressing that it will be ectopic. Scan is booked for April 12 - will just put it out of my mind until then, I think!
HPL - Our nursery has been a sewing room, and I really threw myself into my sewing when I found out I had to wait 6 months to try again. So all of a sudden my fabric collection has exploded! Bought some archive boxes yesterday to sort it all out, and I'm feeling good. Will move down to a sewing nook downstairs so we can actually think about that room.
HPL - I was wondering why you were so quiet! OMG - that m/s is just so tiring. You must have felt like all you ever did was vomit. I am so glad that things have settled down. So it would be 6 days today without vomitting, if your trend continued. I hope so. You will ge your nursery done!
Audax - sorry you had such a bizzare dream Sometimes they can be unsettling.
Gabrielle & Emersyn - how did your scan go today?
Milly5 how you doing?
Hi to everyone else, I am short on time and don't have my usual time to respond. Maybe tomorrow? Take care.
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, I'm a little nervous already. i have been reading this thread for a while and feel comfortable here.
on february 13th and after one day of freaking out I decided that no amount of worrying was ever going to change the outcome of this pg. It has been my first real positive move forward. No longer circling round in my own grief, I have been focused on trying to stay happy and positive for this new little life. I have made the positive decision not to read a single page of a pregnancy book but to react with my gut instincts this time (which I really wish I had gone with last time but it was my first pg then and what did I know?)
...I am currently TTC and enduring The TWW, and just "feeling" certain things that feel pregnant like and arent such a distant memory..
still quite plain food, but "food glorious food" none-the-less! There are still a few things that I can't come at (eg BBQ meat - my DH fave), but my DH and I have eaten dinner together all week now - the first time since about 6 weeks I think!
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