Audax: Love the DH test of running you into the wall to see what hits first! lol! Glad to hear you're getting a nice bump that wriggles.
Dory: Sorry to hear you've had a blah sort of week. Very admirable that you have found ways you can control to try and start turning it around. Thanks for your kinds words too: I am pretty miserable at the moment (have had lots more bleeding today) but as you say there's nothing to do but sit it out and hope.
Kitfaerie: Did you book your scan? Remember you said it yourself: Information is good. It can make you happy! (I don't mean to be glib. I had my first scan yesterday and was terrified to look but i reminded myself that 'not looking' would not change the outcome i got so it was best to know rather than not know)
Angelfish: Thanks for thinking of me. I will keep everything crossed for you too. I hope you get only good news from now on.
Hi Tegam: Welcome to the thread. Great to hear your good news. I can understand why hearing about others' losses is difficult. But you have had a rough time already this year so hopefully now it is your turn for a smooth ride. How far along are you?
Hoping: GL for your scan tomorrow.
Millyd: thanks for your good wishes. How are you?
Eliselouise: glad you enjoyed your break.
Ric: HEllo!
AFM: Saw my OB today. He had the scan report and did his own scan today. Baby looks fine but i've had quite a lot of bleeding today both before and after i saw the OB so i'm feeling miserable. I just can't believe that this much blood can have a happy ending I really want this baby but feel like i'm not destined to have it. I hate this sense of doom too. I know it doesn't help. I wish i could hide under the covers and come out in about 5 wks (with good news of course!) Sorry for 'me' rant.
Sammeyp thankyou for asking yes the bleeding has stopped. I go in for another u/s on monday for my 8 week u/s i am hoping everything goes good but i cant get out of my mind that something bad will come out of it i wish that i could be happy go lucky about everything but i am always expecting the worst out of this whole thing.,
aww possum magic and angelfish i know how your feeling, i havent had no blood yet so far, but terrified each time i have a twinge i even got a digital test tonight as i havent had my bloods done a positive come up (phew) and it only took a minute or less! also i didnt need to wee so fingers crossed its a good sign.
thanks to all for your support, at least i know im not crazy for worrying, booking proper ob appt's this friday when i get bloods done hopefully wont be too long, i know he's going on holidays over school break so most prob will be after that.
i wish i could be excited all the time! and i usually am but when i get a twinge it sends me into panic mode or if i feel abit yucky down stairs then i freak out, even dtd last night even thou i made sure dh was very cautious lol door dh must think im a loony, but i think he understands, we only had til closer to the end of year to concieve or else we would never have another bub, and with early m/c's both confirmed and not confirmed it really made things look impossible, but now with this little one i have hope, and im really hoping he or she stays then things will be complete. so i am very excited each time i am having one of the symptoms even m/s cause i reminds me bub must be doing alright then!
ashie: good luck with everything. I could not say everything better myself right now i feel like i am hiding under a rock until i am able to hold my baby in my arms. I know that i should be happy but i cant let myself get to happy or plan for the future. I feel like if i let myself get happy or plan for the future there will be no future with this baby in it.
Reading all your posts reminded me of just how tough this journey is.... and the fear is so palpable and literally jumps off of the page.... I remember those feelings well.... the deep sense of foreboing, the misery. It does get less intense as the pregnancy progresses, or at least it did for me. It's still hard, but less intense. Having been there, relatively recently, I offer you my support, my love, and my strategy. My strategy, was to be thankful for each day I was pregnant. I couldn't always actually feel that way, but I would try, by rubbing my belly, telling bubs I believed, even if only for that moment. And I spent a lot of time here on BB sharing my feelings and also trying to avoid them by sleeping when I could. Keep as strong as you can girls. You will make it through these dark scary times.
Hoping - good luck today sweetie. Thinking of you....
Possum - just keep treading water, every moment that you can keep your head above the water is a good day. Oh, and if you can, go and hide under the covers and escape for a while....it might help.
Teagm - welcome... and congratulations on your pregnancy! As you know from both the way you feel and what other people are posting, pregnancy after loss is exceptionally challenging. Try to find any way you can to get through..... you'll find the ladies here very understanding and supportive. And we don't mind if the crazy lady comes out... here is one of the safer places for her to come out. Look forward to sharing this journey with you.
Murray - have your feet touched the ground yet or are you still walking on air? Has Samcougar popped in here yet to say hi ( She is about 4/5 weeks now.....)?
Ashie - you'll get there.....
Elise - I know it sounds like I am gushing, but I am just so excited for you.... I just love that you're over 30! it's not often in this journey that we are happy to hear that huh? I can't beleive I've made it to "3rd base" - the 3rd tri.
Audax - it is so much easier to direct when you have a "hose"......you'd think with all that POAS practice we'd be better but I have no sense of direction. Anyway, just glad you could hang on and there were no accidents.
AFM - I am excited - just about to head out to the hairdresser. Hoping that it will help me overcome my slump. I mean one way to feel good about yourself is to think you look good.... Am nervous about being out, but decided on balance I needed to do it. Fingers Crossed. Thanks for all your kind words of support.... I appreciate them.
Well i had my scan and no heart beat yet, they said i am too early as the egg sack only measure around 5 1/2 weeks. So again i play the waiting game. I am a little concerned as according to my dates i should be around 6 1/2 weeks. I lost my last little bub at 5 1/2 weeks and i am really scared this little one isn't going to grow anymore too.
So they are sending me back for another scan in a couple of weeks. Keeping my fingers crossed.
Hi Hoping - I had a similar thing where I was supposed to be 7 weeks and the sac only measured 5.3 weeks. When I went back two weeks later they found an embryo with a good strong heartbeat though they said it only measured 6 weeks. I think some of these early scans are a bit confusing and can be misleading. My doctor said they can be a week out even at this stage. Hope things go smoothly in the next two weeks and you get to see your bub and a good heartbeat.
Audax - so funny about your DH and walking into a wall!
possum magic - huge hugs. I'm hoping all is well, good news about the heartbeat, sad that you may have lossed a twin
angelfish - I'm keeping evrything crossed for you
Dory - glad to see you back, and sorry that you have been feeling low. How does your hair look? Did you get a new do?
Hi Tegam!!
to all of the ladies in the early stages - it is so hard in the beginning, I know I felt miserable the whole time, and it is unfair, because we should all be feeling happy, but instead all we feel is fear. But it does get better ladies.
Hi to all the other ladies - there's now so many of us, too many to name!!
AFM - had another ob appt today, all going well, spud's head is down and bum up so that's good. And I talked to my ob about some aspects of my birthplan, which he is really supportive of, so I am feeling quite pleased now
I really want this baby but feel like i'm not destined to have it. I hate this sense of doom too. I know it doesn't help. I wish i could hide under the covers and come out in about 5 wks (with good news of course!) Sorry for 'me' rant.
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