Reading all your posts reminded me of just how tough this journey is.... and the fear is so palpable and literally jumps off of the page.... I remember those feelings well.... the deep sense of foreboing, the misery. It does get less intense as the pregnancy progresses, or at least it did for me. It's still hard, but less intense. Having been there, relatively recently, I offer you my support, my love, and my strategy. My strategy, was to be thankful for each day I was pregnant. I couldn't always actually feel that way, but I would try, by rubbing my belly, telling bubs I believed, even if only for that moment. And I spent a lot of time here on BB sharing my feelings and also trying to avoid them by sleeping when I could. Keep as strong as you can girls. You will make it through these dark scary times.

Hoping - good luck today sweetie. Thinking of you....

Possum - just keep treading water, every moment that you can keep your head above the water is a good day. Oh, and if you can, go and hide under the covers and escape for a while....it might help.

Teagm - welcome... and congratulations on your pregnancy! As you know from both the way you feel and what other people are posting, pregnancy after loss is exceptionally challenging. Try to find any way you can to get through..... you'll find the ladies here very understanding and supportive. And we don't mind if the crazy lady comes out... here is one of the safer places for her to come out. Look forward to sharing this journey with you.

Murray - have your feet touched the ground yet or are you still walking on air? Has Samcougar popped in here yet to say hi ( She is about 4/5 weeks now.....)?

Ashie - you'll get there.....

Elise - I know it sounds like I am gushing, but I am just so excited for you.... I just love that you're over 30! it's not often in this journey that we are happy to hear that huh? I can't beleive I've made it to "3rd base" - the 3rd tri.

Audax - it is so much easier to direct when you have a "hose"......you'd think with all that POAS practice we'd be better but I have no sense of direction. Anyway, just glad you could hang on and there were no accidents.

Hiya to everyone else - Angel, SammyP, Crumpet, MillyD, Ric, Mo4, Kit.

AFM - I am excited - just about to head out to the hairdresser. Hoping that it will help me overcome my slump. I mean one way to feel good about yourself is to think you look good.... Am nervous about being out, but decided on balance I needed to do it. Fingers Crossed. Thanks for all your kind words of support.... I appreciate them.