tashybabe - I'm not sure the fear does completely leave you during a pregnancy after losing babies. For me, the big fear didn't leave until the end of first trimester but I still feel afraid and part of me is convinced something will still go wrong. I try to just enjoy it but even that is getting difficult with heat and stretching and other damage to self being so easy now. I guess that's normal but it is still something I struggle with because I was so naive for my first two pregnancies, I just assumed from the moment I knew I was preg that everything was fine and perfect and I'd have a beautiful baby at the end, and because that's pretty much what happened, it was such a shock when I then had two m/c after having two healthy pregs. When people ask about it, I tell them everything's great and pretend there's no fear but at the back of my mind I can't help thinking that things are going too easily now and something has to go wrong. It's tough, but they tell me it's worth it in the end. I'm sure it will be (and I'm also sure I'll never stop colouring my hair to keep all the new greys hidden!)