Hi,

Im currently nearly 17 weeks pregnant with my third baby.

I'm having a hard time bonding with this baby and I think it is because of my miscarriages. I had a missed m/c in June last year and three earlier m/c's spanning over 13 years.

This pregnancy started off a bit rough. I was spotting, bleeding and cramping, had lowish and slow rising hcg levels.. So I was convinced that this one wouldn't be sticking around either. I still don't believe I'm having a baby, just that im pregnant ITMS. I am feeling so guilty towards this baby! How do I start believing that everything is going to be ok? Is that even possible? I thought I'd feel better after reaching my safe points but I don't. I don't think there is a safe point now until baby is in my arms.

I'm not feeling the excitement I felt during my other pregnancies, just a cloud of uncertainty hanging over me all the time

Any advice would be awesome xx