Thanks for the warm welcomes, ladies. Hoping I can find some strength in knowing I'm not alone.... BB has been good for me so far.

Melster- Wow, waiting for a surprise! That must take real willpower. My DH and I decided we wouldn't even think about names seriously until we know the gender because that narrows the work down by half! Plus I want to know whether I should buy pink or blue things.

ferrals4- Don't do that! (easier said than done, I know) My counselor told me to use "thought stop replace" when I start thinking bad thoughts. Stop what you're thinking and replace it with a positive thought. Think of all the things you are doing within your power to keep your baby safe (vitamins, diet, etc.) and not the things that you can't control. I need to take my own advice.

damprye- I'm sorry to hear about your separation. I hope that you have someone to be with you and help you right now and that you are not alone.

AFM- Last week I found out a coworker had a m/c, and I cried about it right there at work. I just feel so sad for her because I know how bad it hurts. I found out a couple of days later I was pg, which is weird because last time I was pg the same thing happened- another friend had a m/c and the next week I was pg. I hope it's not a bad sign.

Today we had a meeting at work and another coworker, who is 15 weeks pg, came in and showed off her little baby bump. I had to leave the room to go have a cry, I'm such an emotional wreck right now. Another weird thing, she told me she was pg about a week after my m/c, which I think was insensitive. I feel guilty that I can't just be happy for her, but I just feel so jealous and worried that I'm not going to get to where she is.