Reet - sweetheart, you keep crying as much as you need! I would be exactly the same. I have lost a dog to old age and that was horrific enough for me, let alone seeing your poor darling in pain at such a young age... im sure she has found your angel baby in heaven and they are safe, happy and healthy together. Let those tears fall as long you need, better to deal with your emotions than bury them away sending you lots of love and strength xx