Oh my god.. just got home from the emergency dep.. i was just about to go to bed at about 10pm, went to the toilet, wiped and saw blood. MY WORST FEAR. Its what i have been imagining seeing for the last 14 weeks... so so scary. I was shaking when i called dh and asked him what i shld do.. he said u wont be able to sleep u may as well see if u can get an u/s done.
I called my sisters and they came in with me.. it took about an hour to see anyone, the dr had a feel of my tummy, did an internal ( with her fingers.. i thought wen she said internal she meant an internal u/s) took some blood, took a swab of the bloody stuff and told me to go and wait for the results. I realised that she wasnt even going to worry about an u/s so I had to ask if it was possible to get a doppler to check babies hb.. i had done it at home but just wanted to be sure i was listening to the right thing and that it was still strong. She told me she wld have a look around for it and let me know (i cant believe its not the first thing they do when there is a risk of m/c!) Thankfully she came out and got me and said she had found someone that cld do a quick u/s. The u/s man was quite mean tho! He asked me if i had any previous scans done and i said yes 2 (i didnt tell him about my 2 weekly ob. appointments where i also get u/s's done) He acted rather shocked and asked me why 2! I said a dating scan plus the 12 week scan.. he asked why 12 weeks? I said just to test for DS and the trisomy things.. he looked at me like i was crazy and said ur 24 and testing for those things.. and i said better to be safe then sorry, he replied with oh but that opens a whole new can of worms that u wld have to deal with. OMG!! gggrrr i just said.. yeah im very lucky it came back all fine.
He had a look at baby and said something along the lines of 'Ok is that all u wanted to see?..yes u have a baby in ur uterine'. And walked out. Rude man.
I was reassured after i saw our little baby still moving around and i wld have been happy to have just gone home (1am by this stage) but the dr said i had to wait for bt results to come back.. finally at 2.30 she came and got me and said everything is looking fine, their not sure where the bleeding is coming from.
I just dont know what wld have happened if i hadnt asked for a doppler to be used! What good really is finding out my hcg levels, hemaglobin (sp?) levels (when i have told them i havent lost a lot of blood) and blood group! None of those things say that my baby is alive! They did keep saying to me tho that if i am m/c there is nothing they can do other then make sure im ok.. Great reassurance guys!! I do realise that! Im here because i need some reassurance.. NOT because im scared im bleeding to death!
Anyway the main thing is things are looking alright now.. the blood is a bit orangey/ browny and its only when i wipe or push a little (tmi). Im really hoping it goes away tomoro tho.. i honestly cant live in fear of bleeding for the rest of the pg! I was just starting to relax the last 2 days too... Good one universe!!!
Sorry that this is so long and rambled.. i am super tired.. just trying to stay awake til 4am cos i have to ring dh for his wakeup call to go to the airport so he can come home... yay!!! (by the way he was already meant to be coming home in the morning thank goodness.. this isnt some emergency trip )
Nite nite xxx oh and pls everyone tell the bleeding to bugger off for me!!!
with her fingers.. i thought wen she said internal she meant an internal u/s) took some blood, took a swab of the bloody stuff and told me to go and wait for the results. I realised that she wasnt even going to worry about an u/s so I had to ask if it was possible to get a doppler to check babies hb.. i had done it at home but just wanted to be sure i was listening to the right thing and that it was still strong. She told me she wld have a look around for it and let me know (i cant believe its not the first thing they do when there is a risk of m/c!) Thankfully she came out and got me and said she had found someone that cld do a quick u/s. The u/s man was quite mean tho!
He asked me if i had any previous scans done and i said yes 2 (i didnt tell him about my 2 weekly ob. appointments where i also get u/s's done) He acted rather shocked and asked me why 2! I said a dating scan plus the 12 week scan.. he asked why 12 weeks? I said just to test for DS and the trisomy things.. he looked at me like i was crazy and said ur 24 and testing for those things.. and i said better to be safe then sorry, he replied with oh but that opens a whole new can of worms that u wld have to deal with. OMG!! gggrrr i just said.. yeah im very lucky it came back all fine.
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