Well ladies Im back and am extremely excited to be here, it too a few days to come to terms with the fact we're pregnant again but it is a miracle that I am pregnant and that we conceive this baby naturally - so we shall embrace the opportunity!! Oh how a few good days of crying puts everything into prospective!

My heart goes out to all the wonderful ladies that have entered this thread and sadly had to leave... It is still early days and we are extremely cautious with this bubba, but fingers crossed everything will be okay.

I am too nervious to go for a scan yet as it is still early days, i think my heart would sink if it were too early to see a heartbeat... then i overthink things and go maybe i should go for a scan and see if i have had a missed miscarriage!! i hate that i have lost a baby before, because with these 2 pregnancies instead of being so over the moon excited like all my friends have been recently i am scared poopless that something might happen... it doesnt occur to other pregnant woman who haven't had loss that loss can happen, or at least they ont show it... and im not meaning to sound horrible, i wouldnt wish a mc on anyone, what i would wish is to feel that kind of excitement about my baby without knowing something could happen.

well thats my sad rant for the evening - Looking forward to getting to know all you lovely ladies in time...