I'm so sorry you are feeling down Dianna.... I had bouts of that too. Realistically I think everyone does.

As far as the 'baby relateed anxiety' goes I am sure you will feel a lot better after your 19 week scan. For me that was a real turning point. It was so indepth & broad, I finally understood that 98% of concievable major problems could be eliminated so i was able to sigh with relief & relax.

With regard to 'you related anxiety' my advice is to just start reading & get as prepared as you possibly can. This often adds a sense of strength & power to the equation. I read everything I could get my hands on about breastfeeding, sleeping, hormone rythms, baby developement etc. The feeling of control came in & I felt clearer in my ability to handle the upcoming changes.

Remember.... we have been doing this FOREVER..... you are not the first, you wont be the last & there is help out there for absolutely any problem that arrises!

Treat yourself well & good luck