You really do have a lot to deal with there so it's no wonder you are having bonding issues. Maybe, just maybe once you get past the hurdle of the amnio you will feel a little more relaxed about it and bond just a little, then once you get to the next hurdle - the morph scan (and presuming all goes well) maybe then you might bond a little more.

I didn't have to face all of what you have but did after suffering 3 miscarriages & then having to face an amnio (1/37 at age 41) I could only hope that I would hold my bub in my arms at the end of it all. With my history & my age taken into account the odds were not great. Despite that I did birth that bub & he's 9 months old now - perfectly normal too.

I decided to bond with my bub well before the amnio happened. I just felt that if the pregnancy was only going to be a short one I would enjoy it while it lasted and deal with the consequences if it did go pear shaped. Despite that I still worried about everything & you will do the same I'm sure. Although I always hoped for the best I still really did not believe all was well with my bub until I held him in my arms in the delivery suite. You are likely to feel the same no matter what tests you have throughout your pregnancy.

I wish you the best of luck with it all.