We had our antinatal class today and the morning was all about labour and birth. The information was delivered in a way that made me terrified. It was as if they focused more on the details of the really scary parts like tearing, medical intervention and she even went into detail about how they think that the baby is also traumatised by the experience.

Yes it was information but there was no balance. I felt myself panic and I even looked paniced and she seemed to think that was funny. I was actually looking forward to it and hoped to come home feeling more confident. Instead I have come home feeling like I need to book myself in for an elective C Section.

The afternoon was however great! A different lady, more positive lady showed us how to bath a new born with a real baby that was born just yesterday. She was so cute and I just couldn't believe how easy she was to bath, and wrap etc. I feel confident that I can do all that its just the bringing my baby into the world that I don't feel confident about now.

I dont think I will get much sleep tonight, I am scared I will have nightmares.
I just needed to vent and wonder if anyone else has experienced this kind of eduction.