Ok well I'm going to go against the grain. Do what you need to do to make you feel comfortable. If that means taking control of EVERYTHING then thats what you need to do. You know how I feel, and I want you to know that you have support around you. I don't just think you can do this I KNOW you can. And its going to be tough at times (I'd be a fool to say its going to be smooth sailing), but you are a pretty top chic, and if anyone can handle it I think you can. Something that might help is to sit down and right a list of all the things you are in control of and focus on them?

If you need to vent at anytime I'm here matey. And if relaxing isn't doing anything for you then get busy if thats what you need to do... No two people are the same... and only you know what you need.

Can you get someone to come and help out family wise? Maybe they can come and do a big clean for you? Or maybe pay someone to come in?

Sending you lots of hugs!

*mwa*
Cailin