I'm sure it will all be totally different when he actually arrives. I wasn't really into the whole pregnancy/ baby thing when I was pregnant- I didn't get that whole bond/glow thing or any kind of spiritual epiphany or great sense of wonder. I was sick all the time, I felt like crap and I was scared to death about birth. I really felt defective and scared I wouldn't bond with my child. I was also scared about having a boy- I had really wanted a girl.

Of course, it TOTALLY changed once he came out and I met him. I didn't even know your heart could open up that much! And I LOVE having a boy, it really is so much fun.

I know its your 6th and it was my 1st, so its different, but fwiw, I felt much the same and it did all change once he was out. I'm sure it will be the same for you!