Fionaw

I know how you are feeling hun boy has it been in the fore front of my mind.

I have spent time pondering over what my days will entail, whether I will have time to even spend 40 mins with one of my horses once every couple of days let alone have time for friends etc.

I have just started Mat leave so the thought of returning to work is honestly the furthest from my mind.

I too have never been around babies, changed nappies, cleaned up vomit, bathed a baby and yes I am freaking out a little but I am sure I will find my way around these things - I even had to post in here because I washed my baby wonder suits and they went crunchy (hard and scratchy) and had no idea what I had done wrong .

I think realising that you have no control over it and that you cannot actually plan is the most important thing you can realise at this stage. This way you won't have set ideas about how you will do things and you will remain flexible in your learning rather than rigid and idealistic.

I think the most reassuring thing I have found is that we are very lucky to have a wonderful place like this where the support is always there. Maybe there is a BB member who can come over and show you a few things or mayby if you have gone to antenatal classes you have made a close friend from one or more of the girls there who you can fumble your way together?

Your not alone ..... I am right there with you and YES its doing my head a bit as well

Nae x x x