It makes complete sense to be that frightened. You're facing the unknown... you know it'll be huge and challenging and yet you don't really have any idea how it's going to pan out. How it will feel then. Which challenges? And what's more, your support is unpredictable. I suspect you'd potentially feel more sure of yourself if the father wasn't involved at all (not that that would be a good thing) but that sense of 'maybe' but who knows how much... well I don't doubt that that'd throw me too.

So it makes sense, and it's ok... don't beat yourself up, this is HUGE!!! There's plenty you can do to help you manage the anxiety though. Perhaps see if you carline up some supports that you know that you CAN rely on, whether they be friends and family, or professionals. Have you got support for the birth? Food in your freezer?

.... ugh, sorry. Baby awake! More to add but gotta run now. Meanwhile, big hugs. xoxo