AJ - I'm sorry that you feel this way... I am not there yet so can't offer much advice... just want you to know that I am thinking of you...

Have you spoken to m/w or ob about the way you are feeling...

PLease don;t worry about the size of bubs, they are never right with that, he/she might be on the bigger end of the scale, but it doesn't mean that it's going to be 10 pounds!!!

Try and stay positive... and visualise the birth... it might work... worth a try anyway...