Jacksta, darl this is soooo unbeliveably what we all go though!! especially with your first baby. I was exactly like you and was so freaked out but funnily enough it is true what they say you totally forget all about the pain and it's not really that bad. Yeah it's painful but you just have to keep in mind that it doesnt last forever and just remember that there are drugs there to help you. Don't stress darl, it's amazing what the body can do