am i as horrible as i feel?

[Beatrix]

lol def normal!!!

my kids can ***** me to tears and do most days..

i have times where i am so tempted to jump in the car and drive far far away.. but they pass..

unfort kids pick up on your tension and it increases theirs... sucks LOL

hugs hun and i hope your day gets better

[BhoysGirl]

newmummy85 - don't let this post scare you, it's also the most rewarding, amazing time of your life, and for the most part you love them more deeply than you can possibly imagine. It's just that it's not always smooth sailing, and sometimes you'll need to talk about that aspect in a safe & supported way, and to hear that you're not alone, and BB can be very good for that

[ciara.e]

Hey there

I have been a single mum since my daughter was conceived, although i now have a partner who tries his hardest to help (he works days and nights so he's rarely home)... but he's only been in the picture for a few months as far as my daughter is concerned.

Let me tell you that there have been too many times where i have wanted to scream and throw something myself! There are times where i have broken down and wished my life away. The stress of studying a degree, working two or three jobs, plus having a small child to care for has nearly done my head in too many times! And to make things worse, the support for us just wasn't there from anyone! One day, i called my mum and i said to her 'its no wonder there are parents out there that end up in jail for murdering their kids! All they want is a little support and when they are crying out for a little help no one listens!' I told her that i understand why they snapped. And it's true... i mean, my child is my life. I would never let any harm come to her... but at the same time, feeling like you wished u only had them 'some' of the time is so easy to do!

tantrums suck, bad manners and disobedience is embarrassing and it's all just one big energy waster! Do you know something though? All kids are just as bad as each other.. despite what anyone tells you!

You're doing a great job! it's not easy and you're still hanging in there! Utilise your uni support services for help too!! I found the disability support services were great for me as a single mum with post natal depression.

All the best babe... you know you'll get through this!

[cmama]

Hi all
thank you all so very, very much for replying
oh it's such a relief to know that I'm not alone
i really thought i was a terrible mum
because that evening i just felt physically and mentally drained
and i thought god my life would be so much easier if i only had me to take care of
go live with your dad it's his turn now.
of course i am very glad her dad isnt in the picture as he is a major a-hole
thats just how i felt that night.. like i had enough of being mummy, daddy,provider,carer,ect ect .. that it was just too hard doing it all alone..
i'm feeling better now that i was able to talk to someone about it
it really helped.
i guess i just have to keep telling myself that i'm not super human
and i cant do it all .. all the time
as long as i do the best i can
thank you all so much for talking to me
i am so glad i found this group
xx

[mrsmac]

Hun I felt like this some days when i was single too but you get through it and so do they. My DD is now 18 and a really great person.

Is there anyone who can give you a break?? Your mum? A friend? You need some time out for both your sakes.