a boohoo, but a woohoo in a selfish evil kinda way

XH was meant to have DS tonight, he was meant to pick DS up from my house at 6pm after he finished work. It has been planned since last Thursday, DS was looking forward to it, excitedly helped pack his bag this morning.

XH phones me at 5pm. He is sorry but could I please have DS tonight cause XH has had a bit of a head ache all day at work and is feeling like he has a cold coming on. I told him he had to tell DS that he wouldnt be having him tonight. DS wouldnt listen to the phone, so i had to break the news to him, naturally.

I am angry that XH has let my DS down. I am angry that I told DS in advance that his Dad would have him tonight, I should have realised that he would be let down. DS is fine, yes he was disappointed, but he is young enough to not really get upset and angry about it, just a bit disappointed and let down.

FFS, when have I ever not been able to take care of my son when I have been ill?? If he had gastro, then yeah, it would be better for him to stay away, but for a possible cold, which by the way DS and I have just had so XH probably got it from us anyway.

The woohoo part, well XH has been this perfect dad for the last couple of weeks since splitting from me, was making me angry cause its the first time in DS life that XH has really shown much interest which is a major reason for our break up. Now XH has reminded me of why I left him, so yay, a bit of anger toward him right now will really soothe my broken heart.

Oh and my friend asked me why I didnt fight him on the phone and force him to have DS. I refuse to be responsible for trying to build a relationship between XH and DS, if he wants a relationship with his son he needs to do it by himself now, its no longer my responsibility, has caused me too much stress.

I will no longer be telling DS when his dad will be picking him up, from now on it can just be a nice surprise when it happens