thanks guys x

Kim - thanks for the reassurance that I did the right thing, it is so easy to question myself.

Winter - your advice is great

Lulu - you're right, its ice to have good memories, I justy need to forget those for a while, especially at midnight!

mistree - nice to hear they do get better

still feeling pretty vulnerable today, but i will just busy myself with cleaning. XH is having Archie tomorrow for a few days, so it will be good for me to get a nice break and look after myself