Rachelle,
I really wouldn't be worrying about what your partner (or ex) is missing out on, he mad the decision and must live with the consciquence (i know it's spelt wrong.. lol). your child is better of with a loving mother and no father than having a 'daddy" that doesn't want them.

You need to focus your attention on your needs, go get your hair cut or nails done and make yourself feel nice