Thank you all so much for your advice. Its been such a hard two weeks that i was starting to wonder if it was easier having him around.

DS usually cosleeps at night. He has horrible nightmares, so climbs in with me around 1am. I cant sleep with the tv going. Lol tried that and ended up having some crazy dreams that seemed to be about what was on the tv

As for the friends, I dont have heaps to start with. But this past few weeks i have supposedly done something wrong and now one of the people i really needed support from wont even speak to me. Although a positive is its brought an old friend and i closer again.