Thanks Melly01 it is a scary thought being alone forever but maybe i need to be alone for a while, i have been with DH since i was 19 and its been a long and tough road, i was ready to leave last year and he begged me to stay, tried to hang himself etc etc and now he isn't happy. Pffft to him.

So now I have post baby fat, 4 kids big bags under my eyes from lack of sleep and single.... YAY!

I am going to a counsellor on Thursday for me not for our relationship.

Thanks Lizjessie xox