I just want to wrap you up and cuddle you right now darling.

You know what? You're a Woman - you are a Mother & from what I can see on here you are a devoted Mama to Grace. You are doing such an amazing job.

I understand flash backs & bad memories - they suck they really do...

The pain is real - don't try to run from it. Let it wash over you - when you are almost drowning you will swim for air and be free again. How that happens is different for us all.

He is her Dad - he is just a little boy - & I have empathy for his confusion and fear.

Try not to run stories of projection in your mind. Try to live in this moment. In this moment Grace is here, you are here and her face shines with love! Right now she has all she needs because she has you. You are the most important thing right now.

One day he might grow up (don't hold your breath unless you enjoy having blue lips!). If not that is her journey with him. You have to reconcile this enough to be peaceful about the fact you cannot change him. You cannot help him have a good relationship with Grace. You cannot. It's not possible. Thats his journey & for some reason she chose him as her Dad. That has brought this lesson for her. Your lesson might be to let go of the need for it to be perfect.

Life has taught me that there can be perfection in the imperfect - if we just let go enough to love the imperfections.

I am not making light of this pain - I truly understand it.
My FOTY pointed at my belly when I was pregnant and told me "I wish it was dead like the others"... I have never had words cut me like that. But I am here! I am whole and I have lived through it... You will too.

BUT the longer you hold onto the pain and the disappointment the more life you lose. The more pain you suffer...

Don't give him that power darling heart. You loved him and you and he created the perfection that is Grace. Bless him for that and let him go... You are gorgeous, you are kind, you are gentle. You are so young with so much of your life ahead. Make the most of that life honey. Show your Daughter what Women can do when they are compassionate and kind, strong and wise.

Big cuddles again.