As some of you know im newly single, with my gorgeous 8 week old daughter, and I COULDNT BE HAPPIER!!!
i wanted to leave when i was pg but had no opportunities, no money, i had support people around, but XP was controlling and i wasnt allowed to visit any of these support people. i was constantly cleaning up after him, walking on eggshells as to not upset him, dealing with his violent, emotional and destructive outbursts, and feeling generally depressed, unheard, unappreciated and most of all UNLOVED.
i was admitted to the Mother Baby Unit in hospital for severe PND for 4 weeks and used this opportunity and access to psycs and social workers to organise my 'escape'
have moved into my folks temporarily, mainly to get my depression under control with support from my family and friends, and in a few weeks am moving into a friends place, she also has a little girl (1 yr old).
i honestly thought single parenting was going to be 'too hard', and i know i have alot of trials and tribulations yet to go thru with my darling girl, but HECK i am so glad i left!
i feel like a weights been lifted off my shoulders, i can focus on my little girl, and focus on getting myself better, can look forward to acheiving MY goals and aspirations, hang out with whoever i want, spend time with my supportive family, not clean up after a messy rude slob and not put up with emotional and verbal abuse and physically intimidating behaviour.
i can honestly say i do not regret it one bit! he is harassing me every day but i can deal with it, i am so proud of myself for doing it, and so thankful for all the support i received...my family especially my mum, the staff at the MBU, my friends, and all my BB friends
thankyou if you bothered to read all my blab, haha, i just wanted to share how happy i am and would love to hear from other mums who find it 'easier' (for lack of a better word) parenting without thier XP/XH.
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