thank you. you are both so right.
i feel guilty that i am not using my time wisely to focus on my children and myself, but at the same time i have been so lonely and the distraction of having someone interested in me is exactly that, distracting me from my troubles, which is both good and bad.
i guess i just need more time.
and yes if we tried again it would literally need to be from scratch with dates and romance and getting to know each other all over again & also some counselling to work on our communication which is non existent.
i guess i still feel very unsettled and very much still in limbo and i'm searching for answers just to know what i am doing and what the future holds.

i am so scared to be on my own. i don't know why.