Oh hun, I didn't realise you were going through so much. I agree that if your XP thinks an hour a week is too much for him, then so be it. It's his loss and you shouldn't blame yourself for his short comings. You have your beautiful girl who will look back one day and thank you for being such a wonderful, strong mummy and an inspiration to her.
In regards to your friends, they really won't know what it's like to have a baby until they are in this situation. I'm the same when it comes to going out, it's just not my thing anymore and I'd spend the whole time thinking of DD instead of enjoying myself. But I do try to make an effort to see them when it's a daytime activity, maybe you can try to catch up with them for a lunch or something instead?
Please dont be sorry for the rant, thats what we are all here for x
I know on my journey of single parenthood I can have a week of joyfulness then the littlest thing can happen concerning XH and I feel so down. But thankfully everyone here lifts me up again. I dont think anyone would expect you to be some kind of 'perfect mother' who doesnt ever feel upset toward her childs father, goodness, of course there are going to be emotional times and many of them, we all need a place to vent about it! You are a wonderful mum and Im sure both you and I will get through all this and come out the other side very happy women with our lives ahead of us x
It is not good thing you're experiencing this but try to de-attach yourself from him and remember that his actions are his own actions and do not say anything about your DD. Sorry if I am being too forward but it seems that he is differs so much from you, your DD is your world but he does not see DD as his world yet and allows other factors to take a place over DD. One day he will realise how your DD is the most incredible being cause he helped create her. . . I feel for you cause I am hurting cause of XP and DS is not yet born so I imagine that it is so much more difficult. for you cause you are a strong mother
Thanks everyone for your replies.. im feeling a bit better, just not liking the guilt that gets you, when you feel like you can't give your child the world. i wish there was an instruction manual for being a good single parent i just want to do the right thing but i hate when emotions get in the way..lol
cobaltblue- Thanks hun means alot, if you ever need anyone to talk to hun im always here too i know what its like to go through a pregnancy by yourself, its a hard thing to go through but its pretty amazing enjoy your pregnancy its such a beautiful special time,
widdly- oH widdly thank you so much seriously made me feel that much better, we are strong and things will get better for us thanks for reminding me!
Claire_A- Thanks hunny, i just wish i could do more, i wish i could provide more, i wish i could be more to make up for the fact she hasnt got the whole happy family situation we all wish for. means alot your reply. I agree about the whole going out thing i dont think i will ever be back there it just doesnt interest me anymore.
Ella, Thanks for the kind words ive been seeing a couselor but the one i am seeing is grear but its not really helping so imight have to see someone else, thanks for being a great friend ill be talking to you on msn soon xx
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