Thanks everyone for your replies.. im feeling a bit better, just not liking the guilt that gets you, when you feel like you can't give your child the world. i wish there was an instruction manual for being a good single parent i just want to do the right thing but i hate when emotions get in the way..lol

cobaltblue- Thanks hun means alot, if you ever need anyone to talk to hun im always here too i know what its like to go through a pregnancy by yourself, its a hard thing to go through but its pretty amazing enjoy your pregnancy its such a beautiful special time,

widdly- oH widdly thank you so much seriously made me feel that much better, we are strong and things will get better for us thanks for reminding me!

Claire_A- Thanks hunny, i just wish i could do more, i wish i could provide more, i wish i could be more to make up for the fact she hasnt got the whole happy family situation we all wish for. means alot your reply. I agree about the whole going out thing i dont think i will ever be back there it just doesnt interest me anymore.

Ella, Thanks for the kind words ive been seeing a couselor but the one i am seeing is grear but its not really helping so imight have to see someone else, thanks for being a great friend ill be talking to you on msn soon xx

Ella_Bear- Thanks for the hugs hun i needed them