Thank you for your replies. Just needed somewhere safe to vent - Even when XP and I were together, his outbursts were so stressful and it would just have me so upset and crying. . . I understand his point of view such as not wanting my mother at the 20 week ultrasound (but I did); not shopping for clothing for baby with him or his mother (never thought he'd be interested and we weren't speaking his mother at that point of time due to being labelled "bad parents"); buying a pram and manchester (my sister was buying this and I seen the manchester and brought it there and then) etc. I just anticipate so much more tantrums from him cause I wanted him removed from my medical records cause my mother is the one there for me every step of the way and I want her and aunt at the birth of DS cause they will support but he just seems to be controlling and I am give in due to the guilt of him being a father against his will; guilt for DS that I am not doing the right thing to encourage XP to be involved with DS but you know who cares for me and my well-being during this time? My family does but I don't cause I put him first and foremost due to guilt and that's wrong cause my responsibility to DS to help him grow and not expose him to hormones caused by stress that are toxic to a developing brain and it is my right to enjoy my pregnancy! Silly that he rocks up requesting my number when he didn't even want to watch the 4D scan with me (only wanted a copy and couldn't understand that we only have one copy and it is my mothers) and tells me to "**** off" and then ignored my calls and texts when I try to explain that I want an opportunity to have a friendship. . . Just writing all of this, it causes me to think. . . Is he playing games? My family thinks he tries to control me (I admit to giving in easily) but I can also understand way he may if he feels he has no control in this pregnancy or is terrified of becoming a parent. I will just take some space from him - He does not care about me but at least he is showing a faint interest in DS... Stupid XP