I got a new number to avoid contact with XP because he only engages in conflict! He turns up tonight and I give him my number just so he will go away, I am so stupid to have done that and seeing him makes me anxious. Like my friend says he doesn't want contact with me until DS is born but once I stop contact as he wants then he wants to know how DS is. . . This makes me unwell. I feel so guilty that he is a position cause he did not want DS but wants to be a father once the pregnancy starts progressing and I always try to put him before me due to that guilt It is not easy. I just want him to stay away from me and DS until he recognises that his behaviour toward me is not good and shows me different. I feel terrible cause he is young and has been forced to be a father in this situation but I forget myself too. Feeling so guilty and stressed after a minute conversation. Hate his behaviour but love him for being the father of DS. . .