VENT.. I feel like I'm the only 1

[blessedatlast]

Seriously, am I the only one who lost my babies 2yrs ago that doesn't have another baby or is pregnant? It bloody feels like it..

What is worse is I'm single so I'm no closer to even getting pregnant.. I am over it.. I don't have a safe place anymore..

Most of the people from my Bonnie Babes support group that lost bubs around the same time have either had babies or are pregnant. And even the blogs that I used to read, I can't read anymore because they all have posts about their new babies, or they are posting U/S pics or announcing their pregnancies!!! Don't get me wrong, I don't want to sound like a b!tch, I am genuinely happy for them, but I am jealous and I feel like it's never going to happen ..

Feeling sad and frustrated today.. And it doesn't make it better that AF has gone completely AWOL and I don't even have a cycle anymore. At least when I was having regular cycles there was a chance that if I was DTD it could happen.. Now no sex, no cycle, no babies

[CinderToriella]

no words or advice just a big huh and im thinking of u x

[toomanyshoes]

I agree...seems like everyone is getting pregnant at the moment.

I was very unprepared to be greeted by a 7wk old bub at a BBQ yesterday, to make it worse for some reason it was set up as women inside and men outside and I happen to be sat next to the lady with the baby

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[ss_storm]

nothing to say, just

[Enchanted]

I have no advice for you gorgeous but wanted to give you some

[Kazzo]

[Tuesday's Child]

lots and lots of hugs

[~Hestia~]

[Tegam]

That totally suxs and i can see why you need to vent. I know that i have only gotten thru one of my losses with the help of growing another.... I just can not imagine what this is all like for you.

Hope your cycle gets back on track soon!

[toomanyshoes]

Hope you're feeling a little better today

[Jas]

thinking of you

[Catherine]

Sharing tears can be very healing.
I wish I could hug you IRL. You are so strong.
So very strong. xox

[LionsandBears]

Great big hugs That really sucks. I understand about being happy for others and sad for yourself.

[Melbournemumma]

No words, just hugs

[~TT40~]

*biggest hugs in the world*

[tinkerbelle]

lots of hugs to you.. although i havent gone through what you have, i can sort of relate as i never thought i would have a bub and went through a couple of major depressions in the past because of it.. i guess some thoughts i have, based on my own life experiences - things can always turn around in life.. never give up hope!! i know its hard when youve gone through something really tough like you have.. but try not to live life in fear of what may or may not happen in the future. doors are never completely closed. a book that you might find uplifting is called God's plan for pregnancy by Nerida Walker.

[blessedatlast]

Thanks everyone for your replies and hugs.. I went to Bonnie babes the other night and for the 1st 20mins or so I was just sitting silently listening to the pregnant and new Mum's chat.. I found it hard.. THAT was my safe place if anything.. Now it's not..

Today, I am feeling sad and lonely.. It's not just about the babies, but about being single.. I miss XP. Funny though, I normally LOVE waking up by myself, (and even when we were together I mostly did anyway as he left for work early and I would still be in bed) but this morning I wished I woke up next to him.. I could be back with him in a second, but it's not the right thing to do just now..

Anyway, this is more for the relationship's section so sorry bout that! Lol

Tinkerbelle - Thanks for the recommendation, but I don't think that book is for me.. I don't believe in God.. I did look it up though and can definitely see how it could help someone. (I don't mean any disrespect at all)

Teirae - I have been meaning to tell you for aaaaaages, I love the quote under your name..

[Madham]