Hugs hun, you did what felt right for you at the time. From what I have read or experienced thru work most people have a regret over something, as at the time you are full of so many varrying emotions.
You birthed your beautiful boy and have so many awesome pictures to remember him by. Treasure the memories you have.
Remember Ianto as he was - peaceful and beautiful and your soft sweet smudge. He is always surrounded in your love and he is always safe now, in your heart.
I think it so hard to know what to do in our situations and often there are regrets and second thoughts and "should i have's" and questions- and sadly we never have that chance to do things once our time is up....
I went to open Zahra's eyes, i wanted to know what colour they were- and when i opened her eye i didnt see a very clear image of anything- it wasnt gross, but it wasnt like opening someones eye who was asleep. She was only 35w5 days though- not sure if that made any difference... i only tried the once- i did give her a wash and dress her and tried to soak up all her little bits and peices when i did that, and i was really hesitant to open her eyes out of fear and also i didnt want to hurt her
I think (from what i read) you spent your time with Ianto beautifully- i didnt spend nearly as much time with Zahra which i regret now, and i didnt see Darren at all, which i REALLY regret. But at the time it felt right, and in that situation, you just have so much going on that there is no right or wrong.
Yo will find some days that things will pop up and you will wish you had done this or that- but try not to let it upset you- you did the best you could at the time- and your love for your little boy is no less because you didnt open his eyes xoxoxo
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I think it so hard to know what to do in our situations and often there are regrets and second thoughts and "should i have's" and questions- and sadly we never have that chance to do things once our time is up....
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