I just feel like im in a massive limbo right now. it's been 4 weeks since J was born, and i don't know what to do. DH has been great and so supportive, he's said to me, take my time, don't rush, etc. right now i just feel like i had this plan of me being at home with a new baby and that i wouldn't have to think about work or anything for another year or two.....and now that plan has been completely shot out the window and im stumped. im at home with DD 3 days a week and DS is at school. every time i start thinking about work, i just freakout and think its too soon....but then at the same time, financially,we probably need me to get some casual work soon. as bad as it sounds, when J was born, i would have got a little bit more FTB a fortnight, which would have helped us out a fair bit. Now im not getting that, i feel like we need me to get some casual work, but i seriously can't get my head around most things these days. it's great that today i've managed to vacuum the floors....i *might* be up for cooking dinner later tonight too Lol. DH has been very patient, he's not pushing me into anything at all, but we've both agreed that IF we are going to have another bub, now is not the time, we want to wait a little bit (maybe 6 months or a year,or more...who knows?)

anyway....i don't really know what this thread is about. just for those who have been out of the workforce raising kids, and then lose a baby....what did you do? when did you go back to work? did you go back at all? when did your 'headspace' go back to normal? cause right now, i feel very vague about everything, managing to complete simple tasks during the day is huge for me...

okay, just needed to get all that out. thanks for reading, if you managed to get through.