Thanks Dory and Chody - I appreciate your words. This forum is the first place I go every morning, and its your words that make each day easier to bear.

We brought the boys ashes home last night, it was very bittersweet. I feel comforted knowing they are with us now, it felt very surreal when we were seperated. In regards to memoralising them I've got a few ideas but I'm still unsure. I'm getting a picture drawn of them that will sit on our family shelf with their ashes, and I think I'm going to plant a tree, but I've not figured out what type yet. It would be nice to see something grow and live if you know what I mean.

I've moved passed being angry now - just very sad and will probably always feel let down by the system.