Hi Whitedoves.. I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter Bella. I lost twins at 12 days old after they were born at 24 weeks. It was a very isolating time. I was in shock for about 4 months and barely left the house for the first 6 months.. It's not for everyone, but I went to support group meetings. I found it comforting to meet others in a similar situation and to share some of the feelings that are experienced and know that yes, you are very normal.

I'm really glad you have some friends you can talk to. Much love to you