Tash - her name was Sophie.

Thanks guys, it means a lot to hear nice comments and support. It is hard to talk about it a lot IRL. Don't get me wrong I have a lot of people who are caring and willing to listen but I feel like I dont want to burden people with it. And people are sympathetic but sometimes I feel like everyone has moved on now but I am stuck in a moment in time. I know the world still revolves and life goes on but when the chatter is about other things my mind keeps wandering back to Sophie and everything that happened during those 5 weeks. And in some ways sometimes I feel like I have nothing to contribute because all that is really on my mind or all that I really want to discuss is her but I dont want to repeat myself over and over either by going on about it.

The good and the bad days is something I have to learn to live with, but I just wish I didnt have to summon up so much strength in the process. Sigh.

It is hard too as she was a whole new person with a little personality and mannerisms, and someone that I will never get to know.

I'll try and cut down my account of what happened as it is way too long!