I feel exactly the same Dory. Sometimes I can't believe that this is MY REALITY and not someone else's story. Especially as time passes sometimes it seems further away, but other time hits like a ton of bricks and feels like yesterday that it all happened and I could barely function. I do think this is life after loss Dory. I think it will be like this always. For me it needs to be. The grief is far enough away sometimes, so that I can function and still laugh, other times the grief is right there and I need that too because that is the only connection I have with my Son's.

Sending you lots of love and hugs Dory xx