It's like a scar from an incredible wound. It hurts massively at first, so much you don't think you'll be able to stand it. Then it starts healing, not completely, but enough that it doesn't bother you as much. You might have days when you want to pick at it, focus all your attention into the pain. That's okay. Other days you might not even remember until something reminds you. And one day, you'll realise the raw pain has subsided, faded into a scar you'll carry for life but have come to terms with.
I couldn't agree more with what Teni has said here - it brought tears to my eyes.

It is a wound but as she has said, wounds do eventually heal.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. There is a much support around here for you.