[COLOR="DarkOrchid"]Michelle,
Some of our most beautiful writing comes from the depths of despair - I know it too...
Keep believing Michelle. You have conceived before and you WILL again. You WILL.
I can appreciate how disillusioned you must feel but each cycle you are one step closer to a baby.
I wish I could say something wonderfully profound that would lift your spirits, but I am all out of profound tonight! It may not be your thing, but it has been helpful to me in the past to pick out pictures of what you want to happen. Picckies of new born babies, pregnant bellies, peaceful happy scenes, family scenes. Paste them onto cardboard with some affirmations that fit for you. It is something that you can go to and focus on when you feel despairing. Tell me to go away if it's not your cup of tea.
There is a great little book called "creative visualisation" by Shakti Gawain. It gives fairly practical ideas on how to visualise. It is known that it reduces stress and helps to achieve a sense of well being. I have found it helpful personally.

Having said that it is taking all of my energy to focus on positive thought tonight. I am worried about tomorrows blood results. I FEEL that all is okay, I am just feeling a little fearful tonight. Dinner's almost on the table and then I will kick back and try and focus on that uneventful pregnancy that I have planned for myself!
Michelle