Hello, I am new to this forum so not familiar with it but am looking for support from others experiencing the same challenges as me.

My husband and I are healthy 32 year olds with an (almost) 4 year old beautiful little boy.

A couple of years ago I prematurely gave birth to a stillborn baby boy due to his heart not forming properly. It was an 11 hour labour and natural, drug free birth - very difficult. To this day I am still not sure how I did it.

We have been trying to conceive again for 12+ months but have "unexplained infertility". We have tried natural, clomid, naturopathy etc and have now made the decision to do IVF at Concept with Dr Graeme Thompson.

My first IVF attempt was cancelled as I overstimulated and it was too dangerous to continue. I am now trying my second IVF attempt and my oestrogen levels arent yet where they need to be so they are increasing my injection dosage for a couple of days before I give another blood test to see where my levels are. The problem is I am so worried they are going to cancel another attempt that I am feeling quite anxious and teary.

I know I am only on my second attempt and there are people who have tried many many more than this but I just dont know how many more "hits" my heart can take. It has already been a very long journey just to get here. I am also aware at how very lucky I am to have my gorgeous 4 year old but I so desperately want to give him a sibling.

I dont think I can stand hearing one more person say to me "stop trying so hard and it will happen" or "if it is meant to happen it will" etc.

I am surrounded by people at the moment who are having their 2nd, 3rd, 4th healthy pregnancies and babies and although I am totally happy for them and wouldnt wish any differently, it just reminds me how hard my journey is.

I was wondering if anyone had any stories or advise they could share with me to help me through this difficult process. Many thanks.