Hi Beky

Firstly, I am so sorry that you are going through this at the moment. It must be terribly hard for you.

Have you and your partner got any form of counselling? I think that it is clear that he is having real trouble dealing with the loss of your precious Hydie and also dealing with your relationship at this time. It isn't fair on either of you that you keep breaking up and getting back together and moving about so much.

And I personally think that it isn't a particularly good time for you to be thinking about TTCing.

I think that it would be much better if you got your relationship sorted out and were then able to start TTCing and bring a baby into a stable loving relationship rather than one where mummy and daddy were fighting all the time and you were on tenderhooks as if anything went wrong you didn't have anywhere to go.

I wish you the very best of luck - and remember - BB is always here to offer support for you.