Well, I think I've finally run out of excuses and reasons why we shouldn't start TTC again. After our loss last year I took time out (12months) and lost a lot of weight to get my body healthier and more ready for a pregnancy. Then I thought we'd wait till after our OS holiday. Then it was let's wait til I've had all my dental work done. Then it's.....what? I really don't have any more reasons.

It's really quite crazy, because I wan't nothing more than to have our own little bub and to start our own family. I think I'm really quite scared of getting pregnant and having another miscarriage. Well actually, not the getting pregnant part (although I am the world's most impatient person!), just the not staying pregnant part. Yet I also realise that 1000's of women have gone on to have healthy and happy pregnancies after a miscarriage, and they may well be the case with me too. I tell myself that, and then I start thinking but what if it happens again, I don't want to go through that heartache again, and then I find myself starting to think of reasons why we could just wait a little bit longer.....arghhh!

Even my DH who for so many months didn't want to try again is becoming impatient and making comments about TTC.

Just relax and go with the flow, I hear you say, and I understand that as well. I guess I just needed to vent my thoughts and hope that I'm not the only one who has felt this way at some stage.

Thanks for listening,

Cheers,
HB