Starry - yep i know that I am strong and I could cope - but its really scary isnt it! i thought also that once I had had Bella that I would all be ok - but my heart remebers the pain to well.

Heaven - I am glad that I am not the only one! I hope that we have a good ttc journey and not have to suffer the pain again!

Ill be thinking of you both as we emark on our ttc journeys!

Kate